safiremoon

wow its been over 6 onths since i've posted and som of the biggest things in my life have happend. I got married, moved and am working on getting a better job so we can get back to japan. not sure why i still have lj becides to check my groups...but though it was time for an update. I GET INTERWEBS BACK ON SUNDAY!!!

ok its been 8 months snce i seriuosly posted.a lot has happend and i have been lazy with keeping this thing up to date. i met kenta in september and were about to have our 7 month anniversary. already were talking about marrige. really tired so maybe i'll post more later

I need a new life, anybody wanna trade?

over two weeks and still no word from akira. i'm considering calling a couple of his friends that ihave numbers for but am kinda afraid of how the conversations gonna go.

I dont know really how to explain the way I've been feeling over the last few days, other than utterly depressed. It's been 10 days since I've heard anything from Akira and I'm begning to get really worried, this is the longest amount of time we've gone without communicating. It's not really lke him and I want to make sure he's ok. But then the dred of the fact that something COULD have happend to him is making me insane. All I want is a message form him saying "I'm fine". I dont know maybe i'm just thinking too much about it. It just feels really weird. I go from feeling fine to almost crying in a matter of seconds and all I want to do is go check on him, but its impossible. that and with my problem paying off lcc I just get more depressed because i know that it wll be even longer till I see him again. Now i understand why military spouses get so depressed.
Hopefully things wll get better soon.

Last night was my birthday party and i want to thank everyone that came. The water ballon fight was awsome.
other than that my next mission is to pay off lcc so i can get back to school. i need to graduate by feburary, so i may be lookign for a 2nd job to pay all the shit i owe off. Wish me luck finding one in this economy.

i'm pissed becasue the screen on my zune cracked tonight and i have no idea how.

its been a while since i've updated, mostly for the reason that i dont want to be a down person. but it sucks on holidays like today, how can one be expected to honor a father who is only someitmes there? i hate to admit it but most of the time i forget i have a dad. although i love him we never really make that much of an effort to see eachother outside of holidays and i know its as much my fault as his but its hard. the most often we talk to eachother is when we are on aim. you know how weird it is to have a dad in mu online life but not in my real one?

I've only been back in japan for a weekend and it feels like I never left. I saw Akira's face at the airport and fell madly in love with him all over again. I don't really know how its possible, because I never fell out of love with him. After we dropped my stuff of at his house we just went for a walk, and walked all the way to Namba, it was the most awsome thing ever he stopped me and just looked in my eyes and hugged me. we went to bed at like 7 in and woke up at 5pm and then he took me to a building by where he works that has a Ferris wheel in the roof and we rode that. then we got kinda drunk and went to be at 6am and had to be up at noon to head to shiga and visit with jessie. We got to her friends house and got drunk then walked for 30 minutes to get to the matsuri, on teh way we got stopped my the police who i guess were looking for illegal forigners, and guss who forgot their passport at teh apartment, yup me. they said to make sure i have it next time. it was hilarious because Akira was teh only Japanese one with us and he handed the police officer his ID and said in englsh "Sorry I'm Japanese" it was the funniest thing.
At omihachiman there were these huge ass heavy wodden floats being carriend through the streets and when it got dark every 10 minutes or so one would get lit on fire, it was awsome we got to help carry a float and then when it went up in flames everyone started dancing around it.
Roday i rode on teh michigan, they changed it a little show wise and i think it was better when i was there, but i got to see and shock a lot of people and they actually fed me a 60.00 meal for free so yay for free food!!!!.

tonight we are going to an irish pub in kyoto for st, patty's day.

more later.

As most of you know I am trying to make it back to japan next month to see my fiancee and a few friends. I also have a huge storage unit with a ton of stuff i dont want in it. so i was thinkin g of seeing if anyone would like to buy some stuff to help me make it to japan. i need 1200 and i am hoping to be able to make that much with my 2 checks i get before the 1st but if not then i will be trying to get rid of some stuff, like a mini-fridge, tv and audio stand, vhs movies and random other stuff that i no longer have a use for. let me know.
ask because i get paid again the day before i leave but that wont guarantee me a seat on the plane the day before i want to fly.